Not Again!

I have been deliberating about whether or to blog about this, but I have decided that as my blog is a record of what happens in my life, and that of my children, then I should.

We enjoyed a lovely time at Puxton Park today, which is near Weston Super Mare where Burton, Jenson and I met up with Me and The Boy from TheBoyAndMe. None of us had visited this farm park before but it was wonderful! It had a huge indoor soft play area and then outside there was so much for children big and small to enjoy! A petting village, crazy farm style golf, swings, a wooden climbing tower, go-karts, ride on tractors, JCB style machinery and sand pit and probably a whole lot more. Unfortunately, we didn't get to see too much of the outside as it absolutely poured it down and we all got soaked!

Another reason Jenson and I didn't see as much of the outside as Burton, The Boy and Me is because my little boy ended up with another pulled elbow! I am almost embarrassed to reveal this because for those of you who are familiar with me and my blog, you will recall that barely two weeks ago I had to take Jenson to A & E with exactly the same injury (although I didn't know that was what it was when it happened! I did this time).

Another reason for feeling awkward about discussing todays 'incident' is because it was caused by Burton....again! 

Now I have to mention here, that Burton does not spend his time beating his brother up. He loves him,and sometimes he does snatch things from him and fall onto him and is a bit rough albeit over zealous etc.... I mean he is a toddler and a boy and not even 3 yet. But for the most part it is harmless and just general playtime stuff.

Today, Burton tried to 'help' his brother get into the ball pool by pulling his arm! It was really quick and I saw him do it and told him to stop straight away. I picked Jenson up and he was upset but not massively, and when I touched his arm I did think it felt floppy (which made me feel sick and on the verge of tears again!), but I wasn't 100% certain that it had been injured because the arm pulling had been so quick. So as it was lunchtime I thought I would let Jenson eat first and see if he used that arm (not the same one as last time either!) at all. He wasn't crying so I figured that maybe he was ok after all.

However, half way though lunch I noticed that his arm in question was not being used and just lay by his side in the high chair, and when I moved it slightly to wipe his fingers he winced and cried. Thats when I knew he had another pulled elbow. 
*Flashback to two weeks ago last Tuesday*

Jenson 2 weeks ago

 My first thought was wondering if social services would get involved because this was the second time it had occurred in as many weeks! I mean, maybe they would think it was me causing the harm and think it was child abuse. Or that I was a bad mother and was not fit enough to look after my children!Yes these thoughts entered my mind and I said them out loud too!!

Anyway, fortunately, my Mum and Step Dad live near Taunton and were both at home today so they came over and took Jenson off to the Taunton A & E and Burton and I followed. This was so that Jenson could sit on Mums lap and not have to sit in the car seat.

His elbow was soon corrected and the nurse assured me that social services would not be involved and that this was a very common injury and one that can very easily happen. Burton knew he had caused his brother another visit to 'osbitable' but he honestly thought he was helping Jenson get in to the ball pool. He had been such a good boy today so it wasn't done out of a strop or nastiness.

BUT I really don't want to end up at A & E again ........ at least not this year please! I just felt like such a terrible mummy, I still do. I do watch my children, it's not that I leave them on their own. It only takes a second - a second! - and a trip to hospital can be on the cards. I know accidents happen, and an accident is what happened today, but it doesn't stop me from feeling a bit of a failure.

I am linking this up to