It seems hard to believe that 1 week ago tonight at 21.19pm I gave birth to my second son. As soon as I found out I was pregnant again I immediately felt a mixture of happiness and guilt: happy to be lucky enough to be having another child, a brother or sister for Burton; and yet guilty because I already had a little person who I love above anyone or anything else, and what would he make of another person coming into our family.
As daft as it sounds, I just could not imagine loving another person like I loved and indeed do love Burton. I know that it would be unconditional again and once I held that baby in my arms all my worries would disappear, but it just didn't feel possible that my love as a mother could be shared.
So last Wednesday when I saw and held Jenson for the first time, my love as his mother was there and it took me back to when I first held Burton 20 months earlier. A Mothers's Love is amazing in that way.
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| Jenson & I an hour after he as born |
I would also like to share my Mothers Day present with you from Burton, which made me cry when I saw it because it made me think about how much my eldest seems so big and grown up now. It also made me think about how one day, as with Jenson, he will be an adult and my love will still be strong for them but our relationship will be so different. I am hopeful that my relationship with my adult sons will be as good as the ones I have with them as children, but I know I will love them just as much nonetheless.
So lovely and how fab did you look after giving birth!
ReplyDeleteah what a lovely pic. Jenson and Benson what fab names!
ReplyDeleteah what a lovely pic. Jenson and Benson what fab names!
ReplyDeleteOh I do love the hand print and poem from your not-so-little-man :) Congrats on your new arrival! x
ReplyDeleteNothing quite like that rush of love you feel when you hold your newborn. Makes you wonder where it all comes from x
ReplyDeleteCongratulations Jenny, lovely post :) x
ReplyDeletecongratulations!
ReplyDeletewonderful post, honest and true
Aw, such a beautiful and heartfelt post...I can see me going through many tissues this week. That mothers day present is adorable *sniff*
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, not just on being blessed with the beautiful Jenson, but for having TWO wonderful boys, who will enrich the rest of your life. I totally relate to what you said about worrying about loving another baby the way I love my daughter, and it's refreshing to know that all of those fears wash away.
ReplyDeleteMother Love is always there in an endless supply...however many babies you have your capacity to love just keeps growing! x
ReplyDeleteOh wow, I can see all that love, you are brimming oveer with happiness. Its magic isn't it, as if another drawer in your heart, that you didn't know existed just opens.
ReplyDeleteFabulous! I hoped to see him!
ReplyDeleteLovely, so adorable and it's amazing how big the heart can grow when someone new enters your life.
ReplyDeleteLovely, Jenny. I love the card Burton gave you. Enjoy your boys.
ReplyDeleteawww so lovely. You're very lucky :)
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your new baby!
ReplyDeleteI hope you enjoy your growing sons as much as I've enjoyed watching my own boy grow up to the giddy heights of 6' at age 15. You will find so much to love in every age - make the most of it.
I agree, I could not begin to think how I could possible share the love, but my Grandma says you don't share the love, every child brings their own and I believe that to be true! x
ReplyDeleteHow wonderful! Congratulations! xxx
ReplyDeleteWow, congratulations! After one week I couldn't put a sentence together let alone write a lovely post!
ReplyDeleteA lovely mothers day gift too :)
Aw really lovely post x
ReplyDeleteI had completely forgotten you had not long given birth! You look good in your photo too :-) Lovely present from Burton, something to really treasure x
ReplyDeleteLovely photos and post. Congrats on your new baby boy, Jenson is a gorgeous name!
ReplyDeleteLovely post :)
ReplyDeleteSobbing. Gorgeous post lovely lady!
ReplyDeleteoh my! this post has moved me even more than the first i just read. beautiful!!!
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Lovely, lovely post, and so very happy for you!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!
ReplyDeleteThe eldest child always looks so big suddenly when they have a new sibling don't they. XX
Having two grown up children and the twin toddlers I often make comparisons between them. Your love never changes adn the time you have for each one never changes, the way you interact does though. My two older children don't 'need' me as much anymore and it's always me who calls them!
ReplyDeletethat's a lovely picture of you & Jenson....and I sure didn't look that good an hour after giving birth!
ReplyDeleteI love Burtons hand prints too...the one I had from Jack at pre-school didn't exactly look like a hand!
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You have summed up mother love perfectly. The pictures are great, such a nice one of you and Jenson. x
ReplyDeleteGoodness, Jenny, you have got me crying now. What a beautiful post.
ReplyDeleteYou look pretty hot an hour after giving birth too! :) x