Right so here's the thing.
I am 40 next year - yes, yes I know I barely look day over 30 *ahem* - and as much as that depresses me, what depresses me even more is being 40 and fat. Its not that I am morbidly obese or grossly over weight, but I do weigh more than I should for my height and I definitely need to lose some inches. I want to feel better about myself and feel more comfortable and confident in my clothes. I want my sparkle back I guess because its been gone a while now. And I want to look and feel fabulous and fit at 40. I want to like myself and the way I look again.
So to do this I set myself goals for 2013 of losing some weight and doing some exercise, and actually seeing these goals through and succeeding. I make these resolutions every year and rarely achieve them, but I think my milestone birthday next year, coupled with wanting to get back into my pre pregnancy jeans is spurring me on more than usual.
I have never been thin, and I don't want to be now. I was, however, once slimmer and healthier and this is what I want to be now. I know that I will never have the body I did in my 20's - its impossible almost two decades later and after having two children close together, but I know that beneath this flabby body lies a flatter and slimmer 'me'
I am aware that eating less is not enough I have to exercise (and I hate exercise routines) and being on my own for most of the week with the boys, I have decided to work out to a DVD *gulps* not just any DVD but the 30 Day Dread - sorry Shred
I have googled this DVD and seen some amazing before and after photos taken by women with similar body shapes to me, and those better and worse and everyone who has under taken this 30 day commitment has seen great results. I mean, its just 20 minutes a day for 30 days surely even I 'Queen of the never sticking to exercise routines' can do this?????
So, I am going to post some photos now of my body which will hopefully shame me enough into sticking with this exercise plan while ensuring that I am eating less and healthier too *gulps again*. It is hard for me to see these pics of myself let alone anyone else so publicly, but to get results you sometimes have to resort to extreme measures, right???
(Look away now if you are eating your breakfast/lunch/dinner!!)
The first photos are from a week and a half ago when I decided to order the DVD and start this Feeling Fitter and Fabulous at 40 campaign of mine, after eating too many Christmas chocolates
Since this photo was taken I have been on a healthier eating plan and I think my stomach at least looks less bloated now and I think I have lost a few pounds because my tops fit better over my tummy now.
Tonight armed with my two tins of Heinz spaghetti hoops as weights, (other tinned foods would work well too, better still with 2lb arm weights!) I started my 30 Day Shred and I did find it hard because I am unfit and the jumping jacks made me a little anxious (weaker pelvic floor muscles thanks to child birth) - but I did it and I survived. I hated every moment but I am hoping in a few days I will start to enjoy it a little.......maybe!! It would be so easy to stop and not bother, and that is why I am blogging this so I have to do it now I have told people (pressure - eeeeek!).
Also some other blogging Mum's (aka Cafe Bebe and Emma ) are also taking this 30 Day Shred journey too which is helping me to want to carry on too.
My measurements taken tonight with a tape measure from my OH's tool box ( I don't own a normal tape measure!) are as follows:
I am currently a size 14
Hips 43 inches
Stomach 38 inches
Chest 36 inches
Thigh (right) 27 inches
Upper arm (left) 14 inches
I would be happy to still be a size 14 but a slimmer one. It would be brilliant if I went down to a size 12 but as I haven't been this size since my teens I am not so sure it will happen. But you never know.....!
I wont be weighing myself as I don't have scales and I will be going on photos of myself and how my clothes feel and fit me.
So in an ideal world I would love to look like this after 30, 60 or maybe 90 days
But realistically I just want to be rid of my over hanging flabby bits and have some body and clothing confidence. And have the confidence to wear some sexy underwear again and not my post labour black pants!! Well, they are comfortable lol!
I have to do this. I need to succeed. For me, not for anyone else but for me. I don't put my own needs first very often, but with this I really must.
So here's to the next 29 days of exercising